...crazy like that...
Because I am, and because I enjoy trying new things... and because I had such great luck with the quitting smoking brainwashing technique (in other words, it totally worked and I've had no negative side-effects, no desire to smoke & I've not replaced that habit with something else, like eating so my weight has stayed the same).
I have been giving these paraliminal cd's a try. It's really weird. Mostly it's super relaxing so I really don't think I'm concerned about having any other super big breakthroughs beyond that (because they're designed to be this motivational "you can be all that" kind of thing)... but the really weird part is... it's not subliminal... you know, the kind where you just listen to new age music & your brain supposedly hears the positive reinforcements going on underneath? No these cd's have some soothing nature sounds, ocean waves & stuff in the background but you're listening to someone speak for about 10 minutes or so. The tricky part is that there are 2 or 3 voices talking simultaneously. One speaks into your right ear & one into your left ear. When the third voice comes in, as in the 10 Minute Deep Relaxation--that one speaks in both ears & the other two are totally background in either ear so it's easy to dismiss... I had to try it simply because it sounded so intriguing. Since I used be an avid practioner of intense meditation, I have an awareness of how those really deep states feel to me so I could recognize it right away and it didn't really take any effort on my part to slide into it. It just happened. & then the voices start speaking into each ear separately &... the effect is really kind of cool.
The inside of my head started to feel very large & echo-ey... truly vast, limitless. It was enjoyable. I felt very relaxed and full of good energy after listening to two sessions. I do this now instead of napping. The sessions I've chosen to focus on are Anxiety Free, the 10 Minute Deep Relaxation and one for Lucid Dreaming.
I'm interested to see if any cool things pop up... I'd like to regain access to my own personal disneyland that would be dreaming... but even if that doesn't happen, & I can just snag 30 minutes of down-time for myself each day... well that works for me too.

I made a "Dump Cake" for dessert tonight and I swear... the ease of this dessert is crazy in relation to the smell & taste.
Take 2 cans of pie filling, your choice. Spread both cans of filling in a 9X13 baking pan. (we prefer apple, but I've read you can use whatever. I really like cherry & would like to try cherry with a dark chocolate cake mix, but that'll have to be just for me, I think). Rip open a yellow cake mix. Pour the mix on top of the pie filling. Cut up a one stick of butter & spread the chunks of butter on top of the cake mix. Bake at 350 degrees until the top is golden.
Serve warm with ice cream.
It's just as good spooned right out of the pan when you're wandering around in the middle of the night.
I know.