I'm so damn tired. I woke up at 4 this morning & it was the kind of awake where you just get out of bed because you know sleep won't return. 30 minutes before we left for an out of town wedding, I found out the wedding and reception were outside. Who does that in October? It was 40 degrees tonight. I froze. We all froze. We left early but as we had rode with another couple I felt obligated to do the bar thing as it wasn't even nine. Got to the bar (and I'm not drinking because lately I just have zero desire to. So I am at this bar and someone brings up politics and this other guy who I don't know-but works for the company my husband works for starts this Palin worship thing and it just won't stop. Then he starts in on "fuck poor people. if they're poor they need to get off their ass and go to fucking work." To this point I've been staying out of it. At that point I said, "fuck poor people? I'm working my ass off AND going to college and raising two kids that I can barely afford to feed right now because of the wonderful leadership we currently have. It's not just poor people. This is real life." We argued about Palin because he does worship her. (really. he thought she rocked the debate.) I said, because he asked me, that while there wer many, many things I could point to as my reasons for not liking her as a candidate- the biggest was... If she were unattractive she would NOT be up there. I see her as a blatant marketing tool and I see her as being used as a means to an end and yes, that bothers me on so many levels I don't have time to list them.
Needless to say I did not change his mind, nor he mine and while shit got pretty insanely intense it was a friendly debate. Although I left with zero respect for him because he told me... basically that I needed to work harder and earn more money if I was worried about the price of food.
Fuck you.
If a family cannot afford the barest of basic necessities in life with two parents working full time, regardless of their job or wage-they should not have to worry about feeding their kids or what the hell they're going to do if one of them gets sick. Period. If you are working full time these things should NOT be worries.
I need to make more money. Fuck. You.
Now I'm at the hotel and there are young girls running up and down the hall screaming and I am so pissed off I am never going to fall asleep.
Fshew.